The definition of change is to make or become different. It doesn't say anything about the feelings change brings. There are some people who love change, thrive on change. Then there are other people in which change is not exciting. If anything it makes your stomach churn, acid burn, heart pound. This is all before change takes place. I fall into this category.

There is something in the air today, oh Lord. Sorry, Phil Collins was singing in my head because change is in the air here at work. As I am hearing about the changes, I am excited about the possibilities, but let's face's not here yet. But I am still a bundle of nerves. Waiting is not a virtue I have. I am not into deferred gratification either. Why can't things be quick and easy, kind of like a band aid.

I know change is needed. Change, whether positive or negative, has the ability to make things better, challenge us, improve us. There are two changes occurring and I am torn between the two. I am getting this change whether I want it or not. So decision time, and I pulled up those big girl panties, made my choice and am waiting the results of my labor. I honestly feel like I am hyperventilating and need to be talked off a ledge. Once I get the word, I will be okay. Until then, Tums shall be my friend.

And just so you know, I have given all of this up to God. It is all in His hands and I can't do more than what I have done. Don't think I won't think about it or give it back to God multiple times a day, because that is how I roll.

I guess what I am getting at, and need to keep in mind, is change is going to happen whether I want it to or not, whether I am prepared or not. Yes, when things change it can be scary, very scary. But I need to find a way to deal with it. Keep my focus. Breath. Pray. Believe in myself. And say...I got this! (a little finger snap at the end is good too).


  1. I'm not a huge fan of change either. However, I've learned over the last couple of years that I truly have to trust the Lord and his plan for me!


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